ugh.

What is the point in this? In all of this. In me writing my thoughts, slipping my feelings into hidden passages in these words. What is the point in this? In it all.

Today was a terrible day, and I can only hold my expectations responsible for the disappointment that my heart faced, that my entire existence faced. It's hard, life is hard. I normally don't spill my personal life out onto this blog but today is an exception, because today was exceptionally disheartening.

Instead of boring those reading (or lack there of), I guess I'll focus today's post on one thing; Who do you want standing next to you when things go wrong?

It seems to be a simple question, family, a current boyfriend or girlfriend, a best-friend... But let's not overlook the real purpose of this question; to make us realize just who matters the most. Somewhere deep inside of our souls there is most likely an ache that we feel when that question runs through our minds, an ache reminding us of someone lost, someone never found or someone who got away. It's a hard ache to face, which is exactly why we bury it deeper and deeper inside of us at each hint of it resurfacing. Regardless of our keen ability to disguise our pain, it is still there. That one person still lingers in our minds, and the emptiness they left behind still echos through our hearts... An echo reflecting itself repeatedly as a reminder of something we'll never forget.

Who do you want standing next to you when things go wrong? When absolutely everything works in the favor of your opposing fate. These words strung together sere opened a series of stitches tightly bound within us, forcing us to realize just who matters the most, who carries the most weight in our lives. And as hard as we try, the weight within our heart is unavoidable.

I know the name that would flicker in my mind if I were to ever be asked that question. As to if I would answer truthfully, think about it like this.... Would you?