i don't even know.

Maybe I wasn't ready before today. I wasn't quite ready to face the fact that a lot of things are not the way I wished they were. My mind likes to play tricks on me a lot, it's turned out to become a problem in my past. I just can't consistently stay in one thought process without straying to a complete opposite opinion every three seconds. My mind likes to imagine what my future would be like if something different had happened, if something were to occur. But almost every time my minds expectations are never lived up to. I'm just shot down by the reality of everything around me. Maybe I wasn't ready before today.. I'm still not ready.